I’m in Genesis again. Always in Genesis, it seems.
From Eden to Egypt. I get it. I think. Maybe a little bit.
For I started in Eden. Some of my toughest days involved a
serpent as I stared and wrote and deleted and stared at a screen again. What
was it I heard? What did God say? What is the difference between a whisper
and a hiss? I don’t think I know.
God worked then, as He does, in the beginning of things. That’s
where He starts as the Beginning of all things. And now I am in Egypt. Famine.
Seeking food. For my soul and my heart so empty right now.
I need to talk with Joseph. Maybe he knows what God’s been
up to. Maybe he can help me see what I do not understand as I sit and shake my
head full of regret. Do I know anything about prayer? Do I really know anything
about listening?
I fear I do not. I fear that my time in Egypt is a waste.
Prison to Palace? Can it be true? Did it really happen that way?
“Do not be afraid…You intended to harm me, but God intended
it for good.”
Good. Always good. In Eden and in Egypt. For in between He
gives dreams. Small glimpses, even when we don’t understand the part about the
stars in the night sky when we first wake.
What is it they say? It’s always darkest before the dawn? The sun must set to rise? Paradise in the breaking of a new day. A Genesis.
And God said, “Let there be light.”
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Wandering, wandering. And at some point, you may wrestle with God.
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