Thursday, January 26, 2012

Opening My Heart

I remember you. Both of you.

I never held you in my arms but you’re always in my heart. After all, I am your mom.

We didn’t have much time together but the days we did have changed my life. Losing you did too.

Today, Grandma sent me a necklace with your names engraved inside the heart. That’s exactly how it feels.

I wish I could hold you right now but I know that’s not possible. So I continue to trust the One who can.

He knows my mama heart for you. He knows you better than I ever did. I like to think that our names are engraved side by side on His hands.

For now, I remember you. Both of you. By the wearing of a necklace and by opening my heart.

To grief. To love. To hope. To courage.

Caleb Keegan and Connor David, I love you.


Heather said...

Thanks for sharing your heart. Brought tears to my eyes as I shared in your pain and thought of my own sweet babe. Love you much!

Becca said...

Thanks for reading, cousin. Love you too!

Sallie said...

Thank you for the gift of your open, broken heart. You are a gift. Love, Sallie

Becca said...

Thank you for your words, Sallie, and for allowing me to share from my open, broken heart on more than one occasion. I appreciate your encouragement, prayers, and endless supply of hugs.

Ashleigh said...

This is beautiful, Rebecca.